I've returned. I had to make myself drive down to the coast today. I procrastinated as long as I could. I wanted to cry. I DON'T want to be here. Scott came home for the weeked. He had a death in the family. I stayed around him for the time and soaked it all in. I took him back to the airport yesterday. I felt like I was breaking into a thousand pieces. It was overwhelming. We are both miserable as far as the situation goes with us being apart. I miss him tons and it isn't long until he leaves for 6 months.
I have to be here for the week. My mom says, "When you get so fed up with it that you can't take it and you're ready to come home, come home. I'm tired of you being there. I don't like the situation you are in." I love my mom for saying that, and I know she would support me, but if I quit my job... what's next?
I keep asking, "What's God's will for my life?" I'm blown away. I have no clue. I keep praying and asking for guidance. "I need help God!!" Help will come. I know it will.
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Hey Deresa, come spend a week in Mexico with one of the teams. The May 26-June3 trip still has two slots, or you could pretend you are still from Tishomingo county and go during July 3-10(of course as long as your membership is a tishomingo county trip that is fine). I promise it will change your world view. God bless and good luck, but seriously, pray about it.
ok, here is the answer for direction... read, pray and meditate on the Word for at least an hour a day, write down any words or phrases that stick out... you should start seeing a pattern after awhile
either way, I love you
instead of seeking god's will for your life, just seek his will...period. see where you fit into that. i love you and am sad that you are so tore up over this. let us know if we can do anything for you. i know you'll make it, but hearing how sad you are makes us do the frowny face. carolyn
you ask for help, so i gave help..
aren't I great.
you need help , I give help. you need love , I give love. Aren't i great! your friend ,alway, GOD.
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